Today was a difficult day...draining emotionally....even two years after a former orphan coming into our home there are still battles, emotions fly, sin is exposed, hurt is revealed, and my heart is left heavy and tired. My selfishness is revealed to me when I feel as though I have been wronged. I don't wish for my siblings to not have come by any means, I love them dearly...but in all honesty some days I do wish for a calm peaceful day without such struggles. Yet we do not live in a perfect world where sin doesn't exist, we will have to fight it everyday. We have to die to self every minute of everyday.
I left the house late this afternoon to run some errands with a heavy heart, feeling worn down. While I was sitting waiting for Maxim to come out of his gymnastics practice I came across this article on CAFO talking about human trafficking. It caused my heart to ache more deeply thinking of the vulnerable children in this world, yet it also gave me a new boost, a new drive, "No one on the planet is more vulnerable to trafficking than a child growing up without parents." This is one of the reasons that tugs my heart for the orphans of this world. The statistics are extremely saddening "a recent Los Angeles Probation Department survey revealed that about 60% of the 174 children arrested for prostitution were foster children." Orphan care plays a huge role in fighting modern day slavery. Taking in one child doesn't stop trafficking, but it's a step in the right direction, it's one less child being left to the wolves. God knew my heart was worn and He had me come across this article at just the right time. Yes adoption and orphan care takes a toll on you, yes it hurts. True love is sacrificial, it will take a lot out of you. The reward is far greater than the things you will "give up". As the day winds down God has brought sweet healing to my soul, leaving me feeling refreshed and ready to start again tomorrow.